Fell
Author: wanderingsmith
Started jan 2019
Summary: It was not the beginning, but it was *a* beginning.
Thorin meets Bilbo briefly during the Fell winter.
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: I ain't got no money, and nobody'd be daft enough to
pay me for this. As it is thought, so let it be said; you make the toys, I
play with 'em..
AN: this was 95% written back in apr-august 2014
at the time with grateful help and thoughts from overtherisingstar,
mithen and bofursunboundbraids, and with inspiration and handholding
from nyruserra now, to get the last 5% actually completed!
Wiki canon: Bilbo born T.A. 2890, Fell Winter started end 2911. hamfast
TA 2926 (he has 3 sibblings).
But I changed when Bilbo's parents died.
Braids religion: different than in canon.
Pretty pic that makes me see the characters here :)
http://manic-intent.tumblr.com/post/40170069211/fassabendover-i-cannot-guarantee-his
per wiki: The form of the brigandine is essentially the same as the
civilian doublet, though it is commonly sleeveless. However, depictions
of brigandine armour with sleeves are known
For one so small, You seem so strong
-Phil Collins, You'll Be In My Heart
TA 2911
The ominously grey clouds that had seemed to appear out of nowhere an hour
or two ago had finally opened on the waiting world, and Thorin stared at the
already heavy white curtain grimly. He was going to have to find
shelter soon; continuing to travel would be foolish even for someone who
didn't regularly lose his way. And the Blue Mountains were still at
least a week's travel away even without this forsaken weather or getting
lost. And the bitter cold was making him feel every one of his long
years, for all that he was a dwarf and had near a Man's lifetime still left
to him.
Unfortunately, he'd started hearing distant warg howls, of all things, under
the cover of those clouds, and knew he couldn't simply pitch his tent in the
open unless he wanted to end up as orc-bait. He wanted a defensible
position at his back even more than shelter from the true storm winds no
doubt following behind the gusts that were starting to tug at his
cloak. At least the steadily growing size of the strange twisted trees
in this forest gave him hope he might find a place to burrow down with an
actual wall of earth at his back, rather than the less secure trunk of a
tree.
Though the simple truth was that he was more concerned about wargs being so
far South at all. Could the creatures really have recovered so much of
their numbers since Azanulbizar? He'd heard Men speaking tensely of a
too-dry summer in the last several towns he'd worked, but surely that wasn't
reason enough for a warg pack to wander so far when winter had not yet
started to make game scarce. Unless the North had had an even worse
season.
And where were the Dúnedain for the creatures to have gotten this close to
the heart of halfling country? If the Men could not hold back the
beasts from these lands, the numbers that would end up attacking the Blue
Mountains could force the dwarrows to retreat behind their gates. Dís
had done wonders building a strong, and even moderately prosperous,
settlement for what remained of their people, even under the thumb of the
Broadbeams as it was. They *had* gates they could close to attack,
now. And though Thorin was unpleasantly aware of the diplomacy he
would be forced to bring into play, he had fair hope their landlords would
make efforts to keep from being a weak point in the defences of Durin's
folk.
Alone in the falling dark of the winter's first snow and facing such a grim
future, Thorin could admit, in the shameful depth of his own mind, that he
would rather bear the bitterest cold as a mere scout in the Wild than to try
to adapt to actually governing, even in the beggarly halls of their exile
and with Dís at his side. He had led his people in war and had no
qualms to do so again; but the rest of his life had been spent searching out
all their scattered people to send them to Dís, while taking whatever work
he could to send the settlement funds. If he'd spent 5 years' worth of
the last 140 giving rulings from a hall, he would be surprised. He
often wondered if, now that as many of their people were gathered as were
likely to be found, he might spend his remaining years working the Blue
Mountain forges, even pale shadow of Erebor that they were.
For all that he remembered all the lessons he'd had as a dwarfling before
the Lonely Mountain was taken, he'd not been old enough to be responsible
for any decisions then, only old enough to stand next to the throne as
another of his grandfather's treasures, and stand with the guards as a
living symbol of their king. Most of the life he had lived had made
*this* king more of a smith and common warrior than a diplomatic
ruler. And tramping through a forest in old leathers and ragged furs,
on guard for wargs, was more appealing to him than wearing the finest silks
and jewels while bending the council to his will. Even if Erebor were
not lost beyond sane hope, even in the majesty of those golden halls...
Thorin feared, very deep down indeed, that he was not the leader his people
needed.
If his grandfather could read his thoughts from the Halls of Mandos, he
would disown him, he thought in mild disgust for his own weakness. He
was an heir of Durin the Deathless! He could accomplish anything he
set himself to, and that foolish council *would* bend to his will!
All such brooding was set aside when he heard the screams.
Axe and sword both flying to his hands, the sounds of pain and fear had him
running and leaping at breakneck speed without even halting to clip back his
hair. Whatever the passage of time seemed like while scrambling
through the snow-covered and tangled forest, with a pack on his back and
weapons in each hand, it couldn't have been more than a few minutes before
he burst into a small clearing. A child with a short staff was
standing on the far side, between what were obviously bodies on the ground
and three wargs, their hindquarters now a few paces from the reach of
Thorin's sword.
"Khazâd ai-mênu!"
The roar as he held his axe at guard and swung Deathless in a high arc had
the desired effect and the creatures abandoned their defenceless victim to
turn to him. He followed his sword's natural movement to end its arc
by hamstringing the rear legs of the nearest beast, changing its threatening
snarl to a yowl.
Still letting the sword's momentum free, he spun with it, knowing he needed
every advantage, eyes flying to track his opponents, sending his battle-axe
upward to slice open the belly of the next creature, already almost turned
to leap at him.
Too close! Having ended up between the dropped hind-end of the first
and the sidestepping body of the second as it screeched, he had to duck
deeply to avoid the first one's teeth, coming out of the movement with
Deathless rammed up through its jaw, blood splashing on his boots, narrowly
missing coating his front, and hopefully high enough to kill it because he
felt the other move and knew he had to turn *now*.
His axe-arm powered upward to gather strength, body following it and his
head turning to find the nearest target area; unfortunately leaving his
sword behind, seeing as pulling it needed a different angle than wielding
his axe. With a wordless cry, he threw all his strength into sending
the sharp axe blade onto the second's spine, too near his own
shoulder-height with the creature still standing, relieved he had gotten
enough power behind the blow when he heard the resulting crunch of a
death-strike, but forced to let go of the weapon now stuck in bone instead
of having slid between vertebrae.
Diving for where Deathless lay, sticking out of the chin of the first dead
warg, he took hurried stock beyond his two fallen foes, swearing and rolling
further when he saw the third about to leap at him.
"No!"
The high-pitched shout pulled both Thorin's and the warg's attention, and
Thorin was rushing for his blade before his eyes finished opening
wide. That foolish child had swung its little staff at one of the
creature's rear legs, obviously for the single purpose of drawing its
attention; and now he had it, and if Thorin did not get his weapon into the
fray-
Even as he leapt up with Deathless extended, he heard the child scream and
saw him fall, though the warg had, oddly, still not pounced when Thorin
landed on its back and grabbed a hank of fur at the back of its neck and
used it to swing himself down and sideways and repeat the throat stab that
had slain his first foe.
Letting go of the ruff, he dropped to the ground with another roll, made
clumsy by his pack, before rising and reaching for the child's frail body to
easily lift him and set him on his feet away from the creature's
death-throes, avoiding either of them getting covered in gore.
Swivelling his head to be sure he could not see further threats, his eyes
widened at the sight of a fourth dead warg, off to the side of the bodies
the boy had been protecting. A staff like the boy's buried in its
throat.
An affliction he now noticed the last one he'd killed also had.
Impressed at the strength, as well as the courage that the child had shown
distracting the beast in the first place, Thorin looked down, meeting
surprisingly mature, but pain-filled eyes only a few inches lower than his
own. He nodded, trying not to be too abrupt in deference to what
struck him as near panic in the lad's body language under that loose coat,
"I thank you for the help."
It took a noticeable few moments before the young halfling, which Thorin was
now certain this was, looking at the features already set with adult
character in that short, though surprisingly thin, considering how halflings
had always been described to him, body, responded in a strained voice much
deeper than his shout had been, "You're w- welcome. But I- I owe you
my life for-" he waved at the bloody clearing of dead wargs and Thorin
noticed blood soaking the boy's shredded sleeve.
Waving off the thanks, he bent to retrieve Deathless to slide it into its
sheath and shrugged off his pack, then turned to look at the bodies the
halfling had been protecting.
"They're dead."
He turned back at the halfling's dull words, too familiar with shock not to
recognize hints of it, even in the un-familiar un-bearded features. As
little patience as he had for people who turned a blind eye to the inherent
cruelty of life, Thorin still found himself shifting to stand between the
lad and the sight of his fellow hobbits dead, jaw clenched in tired regret
that the Morgoth-spawned creatures had taken more innocence from this
world. "Yes. They are."
A sharp gust of wind pulled his attention away from the wounded eyes that
had strangely held him; distracted him. The snow was increasing; they
needed to find shelter, and quickly. Looking back down, he could see
the lad was shivering as he stood, his long coat stylishly cut, but not near
thick enough, nor designed to properly cut the wind from the equally unfit
for longterm exposure to this weather clothes it clearly exposed, and his
shocky gaze wandering between the bodies and Thorin.
He held his hand out, dimly registering that it was covered in warg-filth,
trying to reason away his urgent need to leave right *now*, trying to think
clearly enough to keep himself from antagonizing someone as he so often
did. That was too much blood for such a small body to lose so quickly,
he could not afford to leave it untreated. "We need to find shelter if
either of us is to survive this storm. Will you let me bind your
arm? Will you let me help you?"
The halfling focused on him and took a shaky breath, obviously trying to
look brave, not knowing that he'd already proven himself beyond doubt to the
dwarf. "My na- name is B- B- Bilbo Baggins."
Thorin bowed his head formally, "Thorin son of Thráin. At your
service."
The lad awkwardly bowed back, "I- home is- we- we were on the way to
Brokenborings when the- they-"
Thorin followed the wide eyes to the downed beasts, snarling in disgust,
"They are wargs. Creatures bred by orcs."
Master Baggins' eyes widened, staring at the dead creatures for an instant
before frowning back to Thorin seriously, "They- they shouldn't be
here. I've n- not heard of wargs anywhere near the- the Shire since-
since the battle of Greenfield, 160 years ago. Since the Rangers started
guarding us."
"No, they should not be here; but they are. And it is not safe for us
to be in the open like this." Thorin gritted his teeth, swallowing his
rising voice down to a growl, "Your arm?"
"Oh.. Sorry. Yes."
With permission given, Thorin did not hesitate. Throwing his furs over
the thin frame of his small companion to try to keep the shock from allowing
the cold to take hold in him, he crouched down and hurriedly used some snow
to scrub the worst of the blood and other other gore from his hands, then
opened the cuff of the lad's shirt, well-made but too thin to be of use
against the elements, quickly but carefully working his injured arm out of
the mostly-whole coat and rolling up what was left of the once white shirt
sleeve, snarling soundlessly at the deep teeth scratches; he had been lucky
the jaw had not closed. Remembering taking care of his nephews when
they were young and unused to pain, he sang quietly to distract his patient
as he worked loose the ragged slices of shirt material and used handfuls of
unsoiled snow to clean the wounds as best he could, then reached for his
pack to find his wound salve and the prepared strips of old cloth he kept to
make caring for an injury quick. The material of the halfling's shirt
was the sturdy kind of quality, and even sliced it should serve as bandage
under the coat's feeble protection.
Thoughts already moving on to their next steps and debating what the safest
course was, he spoke up, hoping to distract the lad and get information at
the same time, "Do you know where we are?"
"We heard the howls and my-... we- home was the nearest shelter. But
then they were closer and we thought we could hide in the trees-"
"That would not have saved you from wargs. They can bring most trees
down-" Thorin stopped, looking up as he felt his patient shudder. Regretting
having to add to the lad's fear when he was already weakened, he softened
his voice, "I would not wish you to make the mistake when I am not near,
halfling."
"Hobbit."
Not understanding the insulted frown, Thorin raised a brow, once again too
easily distracted from their situation, "Hobbit?"
The lad glared down at him mutinously, "We are no more *half* of something
than you dwarrows are. No dwarf would stand to be called half of a Big
Folk, and no hobbit appreciates it."
Blinking in furious shock at the very *thought* of being called *half*....
well and good. "Very well. Hobbit." He glanced to the
bodies besides them and back up to the young *hobbit*, knowing the weight of
his words, "We cannot remain here, Master Baggins. We will freeze in
the open and there could be more packs near. How close is home?"
He held the gaze as the lad's widened, an objection obvious in his
expression. One he understood perfectly: leaving the bodies of dead
comrades for predators was a harsh decision that never got easier to
make. "The soil froze too hard these past weeks; I cannot bury them,
nor can we afford to carry them."
"An hour." The young hobbit tried to clear the obvious anguish from
his throat, "In g- good weather, an hour away."
The dwarf could see out the corner of his eyes that the curtain of white was
now thick enough to penetrate into the forest; cross-country in such
worsening weather, an hour could be a day, even assuming the hobbit had a
better sense of direction than Thorin and they did not get turned
around. Exposure would kill them long before they got to safety, even
if wargs did not hasten the end. Sliding the lad's arm back in its
sleeve and smoothing the stiff wool over his makeshift bandage, hoping it
would be enough to stop the bleeding, Thorin stood, "Then we will stay in
this forest. I had hoped to find a large enough tree that its roots
could provide shelter. Come." Plan made, he grabbed his pack and
then automatically laid a hand on one of the youth's shoulders to make sure
he followed, looking for the warg he'd left his axe in.
When the hobbit slipped out from under his hand, Thorin's head whipped back
with a frown, only to catch his breath as he saw the youth crouch down next
to one of the dead hobbits, the flowers decorating a thick dress implying a
she-hobbit to his otherwise uncertain judgement. "Hobbit. We do not
have-" His brows rose in shock at the controlled glare the young
hobbit turned his head to send him.
"We were gathering food supply information for the Thain. I will NOT
have their d-" Thorin felt his heart go out to the youth at the break,
waiting respectfully, if with an impatient hand on Deathless and his eyes
scanning for danger, as the lad turned back and shuddered his way through
his grim task, still muttering with anguish. Thorin remembering a
young dwarf who would not have taken an offer to take away his tasks simply
to save him further nightmares.
"Will *not* have them d- d- die in vain. There is famine coming; not
enough crops survived the summer, and that frost destroyed more." When
he looked up at Thorin, there were tear tracks on his face, but he only
spoke quietly, "Would you retrieve the staffs? I'm not sure I'd be
able remove them."
Refraining from his instinctive dismissal of such paltry items, Thorin gave
him a quick but respectful head bow and hurried to the furthest one, his
warrior's heart still impressed that the smaller and untrained hobbits had
managed to kill one of the creatures on their own. He found another staff
half buried by the warg's bulk and slid both through the strap for his axe,
then felt the youth coming to his side as he jerked the one out of the
creature Thorin had finished off.
"You're hurt!"
He followed the hobbit's eyes to his arm between the bracer and sleeve of
his brigandine, seeing a small tear with blood streaked around it.
Tensing the muscle and feeling the sting of a small cut, he looked back up
with a shrug, "It is nothing, mim azaghâl, we ne-" He blinked to again find
himself ferociously glared at for the second time in minutes.
"I am *not* a child. And you-"
Grimacing as he realized what he'd said, Thorin interrupted, "I did not call
you child." The continued accusing stare did not surprise him and he
gritted his teeth, annoyed at himself, "It is Khuzdul. It is not to be
shared with strangers."
He could have left it at that, save that the sullen look of acceptance that
made Thorin's stomach tighten faded into a not-unexpected vacant stare at
the two bodies behind the dwarf; which hurt worse, for all that he badly
needed to get them out of this clearing. He had felt that shock
himself, many times. And even being among enemies did not stop one
from freezing sometimes. When the dark eyes began to shine with tears,
Thorin laid his hand back on a small shoulder, waiting for those hurt-filled
eyes to turn to him, suddenly finding no strength in himself to add to that
sorrow merely out of suspicion for strangers.
This hobbit had already shown that he understood loyalty: the dwarf found
himself needing to believe he could trust his silence. Just this once,
Mahal, let there be some good in the wider world past his kin. He
leaned to press their foreheads together, hoping the dwarven custom would be
understood, "I grieve with thee, mim azaghâl," he gently stroked a tear away
with two gloved fingers, "Little warrior." He waited for the surprised
eyes to meet his, and then widen in recognition of the translation, "They
would not wish you to sacrifice your own safety. We *must* go."
"I know."
Relieved at the return of understanding between them, Thorin stood, handing
the hobbit his staff, "Come, I need to retrieve my axe."
They walked the few steps from the hobbit's dead kin to Thorin's weapon, and
once it was on his back with the hobbit's spare staffs, he looked at the
forest around them, then down at his companion, frowning to catch him
shivering. Thorin's open furs reached well to his feet, but left his
neck, head and arms exposed as badly as his coat did. He shifted his
hand to the lad's far shoulder so Thorin's cloak shielded him and then
pulled him closer to share what heat he could, walking them to the nearest
tree so his returning tension could at least have that trunk covering his
back while they spoke. "Do you know these woods enough to know a place
we can shelter?"
Feeling the smaller body trustingly come close to his side should not have
given his tired and worried spirit strength. And yet Thorin could feel
himself settling; the dangers just as real, but easier to slot into a
controlled corner of his mind.
"You said you were looking for roots? How will that shelter us from
wargs?"
"It will not. Nothing but stone will protect from wargs. Large
roots, or better, roots having exposed an earthen hollow, would provide
shelter from the weather. And provide a protected side if we are
attacked."
Ice pellets came on a gust of wind as the hobbit frowned in thought and
Thorin closed his other arm around him, the sharp cold getting through even
*his* clothing. They could not afford to search long, they would have
to settle for a tree at their backs and snow piled as a windbreak, if it
came to that. He looked down with a frown at the hobbit's bare feet;
he'd heard they never wore boots, but surely this was foolish...
"Yes! Yes I remember one!"
Thorin's brows raised a bit at the arm suddenly around his waist and tugging
him authoritatively, but followed willingly.
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Before they found the hobbit's remembered tree, the late winter afternoon
turned as dark as snow would leave it, and that snow was falling so thickly
that Thorin would doubt his guide's chances of finding his destination, save
that he continued to recognize landmarks and adjust their course with
confidence. Nonetheless, between the inches accumulating on the
ground, and both of their constant shivering, if they did not find it soon,
it would be too late to save them.
With the route in the hobbit's hands, Thorin kept his attention tightly
focused on listening for any sounds of attack, refusing to have *his* back
broken by a surprise leap, which one of the dead hobbits seemed to have
suffered, and leave his companion defenceless again. The more he
thought of it, the less he liked the presence of those four creatures.
Wargs hunted in much larger packs; those had most likely been a scouting
party. So how close was the pack? And how quickly would their
orc-masters notice the missing scouts? And *where* were the
Dúnedain?? Of all Men, those were some of the very few that Thorin
would not have expected to fail so badly as to allow wargs to enter half-
*hobbit* territory.
"There!"
The hoarse word was not near a shout, but as they were walking huddled
together, Thorin heard, and followed the arm pointing at a darker shadow
ahead, seeing the bandage he'd made show past the sleeve:
bloodstained. A few more stumbles through treacherously snow-covered
tangles and they found themselves before two trees with trunk wider than
both of Thorin's arms' reach, so close that their thick roots, after likely
having hit good stone somewhere below ground, had grown on the surface,
tangled together. And formed a hollow where a hobbit and a dwarf could
huddle.
Thorin grinned down into the brief beaming smile that changed his
companion's stiff features into a completely different world of soft joy,
"Well done, Master Baggins."
He laid the weapons he carried by the entrance and shrugged off his pack,
taking a moment to extend his senses to the forest, listening for any sound
outside their breathing and the angry wind fighting the trees. Finally
forcing himself to be satisfied with their momentary safety, he crouched
right next to Deathless and pulled out the salve and his oldest undershirt
before turning to the hobbit watching him attentively. He nodded at
the lad's forearm, blood seeping worrisomely into view, "Let me look at that
arm again; that bandage did not do enough."
The lad's grimace and hesitation in offering the arm told him clearly enough
that it was painful, battle-heat no longer hiding the pain, and bruising
having had time to spread its damage around the injury, not to mention
infection all too likely settling in. He made his fingers as careful
as he could and started singing the first old song that came to mind as he
undid his knotted strips and pulled off the destroyed shirt sleeve,
flinching as he heard the hobbit's choked cry at the pull on inflamed
flesh. Thorin looked up, and, alarmed at the lad's suddenly pale skin,
spoke quickly, "Lean on me while I work, mim azaghâl, and keep watch on the
forest. I'll be as quick as I can." He waited as the lad's
un-hurt arm came to rest on the dwarf's shoulder and his chest leaned on the
top of Thorin's head, and then looked back down at the uncovered
injury.
Singing only loud enough to provide distraction, just as the request of
watch duty had been, he once again took snow, glad the ice pellets hadn't
continued and made the powder too hard for the use, to wipe the blood off,
his jaw clenching at the sight of the angry red skin underneath. There
was no pus yet, but this did not bode well. He swallowed, then spoke
quietly, unable to look up without disturbing Master Baggins' position, "I
need to clean this better, mim azaghâl, warg bites infect easily. But
it will hurt."
"I understand."
With a deep breath, Thorin took more snow, deliberately picked a song in
Khuzdul in the hopes that the strange language would pull the lad's
attention, he squeezed the hobbit's forearm above the injury to try to
deaden some of the feeling, and then he cleaned inside the bites, flinching
at the clenched-off shriek too near his ears. He did his best to
ignore the pain he was causing in favour of making sure he gave the whole
wound a thorough wipe with the snow. When he was done, he quickly
filled it with salve and liberally coated the area around it before tearing
enough of his old shirt to properly wrap around the forearm several
times. With a bad feeling for how often he might have to do this
before he could find help, he reused the bloodied shirtsleeve as a last
cover and the old knot strips to tie it off.
Rising slowly so the hobbit could straighten ahead of him, he was only
slightly surprised to have him meet his eyes with stubborn bravery, not
hiding the tears of pain but not asking for pity.
"Now yours."
Brows flying up at the clear command, Thorin was about to argue when the
hobbit picked up his arm and turned the bloody elbow toward them, "You just
said they get infected."
Glaring into the tear-streaked but equally strong glare did not change the
lad's expression one whit and Thorin finally agreed, knowing if was a good
point. He undid his bracer and let the hobbit awkwardly roll up his
now blood-stiffened sleeve, glaring at his arm when it was exposed.
Though not near as infected as Master Baggins', nonetheless he would have to
salve it for at least a few days if he did not want to risk his arm
stiffening before it finished healing. And with wargs about, he could
afford no such weakness.
Though he could have done it himself, he let the hobbit doctor it, knowing
well enough that doing something made life easier to bear during times such
as this. And they would have many hours of nothing whatsoever to do,
soon. Once he was bandaged and the bracer back in place, he quickly
touched their foreheads together with a muttered "Thank you." Then,
about to reach for his pack, he nodded at their shelter, "Remove as much of
the snow as you can. Push it against the roots to make an added layer
of protection, but clear the floor so we do not sit in cold wet." As
the lad crawled in on his good arm, awkward but eager, Thorin put away the
salve and rag and then pulled out the leather sheet that made his tent,
unrolling it and folding it enough to slide into the shelter when his
companion was done, then made sure the blankets and food were easily
reachable.
By then the floor was clear enough and he stepped over, carefully putting
his pack to one side, then clumsily sliding in next to the hobbit.
Looking around himself at the small space, he changed his mind and crawled
back out, waving impatiently at the confused hobbit, "Out." Once the
lad had crawled out with a frown at the dwarf, Thorin laid the leather down
on the bottom, as far back as he could sit upright, then crawled back in,
settling on it as comfortably as even light armour would allow and running
the cover up the side of the hollow, then over top himself and down the
other side to be held almost at roof-level by his pack. Pulling out one of
the blankets, he threw it over his shoulders, finally setting himself with
his back resting on thick roots and with one knee bent and the other
straightened out.
Then he waved at the watching hobbit, "Take the furs off, they'll serve you
better as a blanket, then come sit here," he patted his straight leg, gaze
firm to try to forestall any arguments, "We'll both need the warmth before
we manage to get out of here, and it will be less crowded this way than
trying to sit side by side." He could see the pride beginning to
stiffen tired features, but a gust of wind, which Thorin was glad was
currently blowing at enough of an angle away from their door that he hardly
felt it, ended with a hobbit awkwardly scrambling around his legs.
He took the furs out of the hobbit's hands and helped him settle his back
half against Thorin's chest and half on his bent leg, then threw the ragged
but still warm garment over him, reaching to be sure those uncanny bare feet
were fully covered. The idea of exposed skin in this weather was
simply unnatural to the dwarf.
A few more minutes of silent shifting by both of them finally got Thorin's
back resting comfortably again, with the hobbit's small frame starting to
relax enough that his head came to rest naturally into the dwarf's
shoulder. One of Thorin's arms around those smaller shoulders and the
other lightly dropped on a fur-covered leg; his weapons' hilt and handle
within reach. The leather flopped down against his head and the sides
of it made a frequent rippling sound with the wind, but they were sheltered
from all but the pervasive cold. Thorin felt himself start to truly
settle. There was still danger from wargs, and he would keep watch and
work to keep his muscles from stiffening to be ready to act, but he could
let the stress ease, could breathe as close to peace as his life ever
provided.
"Thank you."
Dropping his eyes from watching the white world beyond their gate for
trouble, Thorin looked at his companion, the reflection on the snow giving
just enough light to still see tiredness drawing dark eyes down. "We
are in this together, there is no need for thanks. If you are hungry,
I have some bread and meat left that we can share."
"...Not just now."
Suspecting he no more wanted to move when they'd just settled into some
comfort than Thorin himself did, the dwarf nodded acceptance and returned to
his watch.
As quiet descended, Thorin could feel the hobbit's tension mounting, but was
helpless to help him deal with the memories and grief that he knew had to be
rising to the surface. He was therefore less than surprised at the
slightly desperate question suddenly muttered at him.
"Where do you come from?"
Thorin hesitated, debating what answer to give. The full truth was one
he had not felt like offering in a very long time, and yet... "I lost
my home many years ago. I live in the Blue Mountains, now."
The feel of a small hand coming to rest on his chest made him frown down in
automatic reaction to pity, only to be caught by the very real sorrow
pulling down the hobbit's lips as he spoke, "I'm sorry you lost your home."
Swallowing his incipient snarl, Thorin was instead stymied for a
response. Contenting himself with a shrug before looking back outside
as another bout of wind-broken silence spread.
"The Blue Mountains... Ered Luin?"
Thorin snorted without looking down, grumbling his answer, just loud enough
to be heard, "Those tree-shagging elves call it that, yes." But then
he frowned, curious: he would not have thought so many elves visited the
Shire as to spread their names. "And how do you know that name,
hobbit?"
"I like maps. And books. Where was your home?"
Thorin would later blame the way the lad's tone had lightened when given
something to think of for the ease with which he let the next secret
out. "In the Lonely Mountain..... Erebor." It had been so long
since he'd said that name. He was unsurprised that it still brought
that painful combination of horror and longing.
The awe in the hobbit's voice drew his eyes down as he spoke, though,
"There's a dragon there!" Then Thorin saw horror suddenly spread on
the stiff features, "Oh! I'm sorry..."
The dwarf nodded, finding sad solace in that horror, "As I am for you, mim
azaghâl." No matter the count of friends he'd lost that day, Thorin
knew the hobbit's loss hurt just as badly. There were some things that
numbers did not truly make worse.
And the lad must indeed be fond of maps and foreign books to be familiar
with a place as far away and out of current common knowledge as the Lonely
Mountain. Let along to have heard of Smaug.
It was his own stomach that growled first, the morning's meal long
gone. With a grunt of annoyance, he looked at the hobbit, "Can you
eat?"
Though the lad looked less than enthused, Thorin decided that the tension
most likely taking away his hunger would probably be improved with food
anyway. He reached for the pack just past the hobbit's feet with his
free hand, pulling out the blanket he'd left on top and dropping it on
hobbit legs to reach for the food below.
Master Baggins sat up carefully and they shared a few silent bites of bread,
meat and cheese. As he noticed the longing look sent the supplies he
repacked, glad at least the lad's appetite had returned, he nodded at the
storm, "If that lasts longer than the night, we might need the food to last
us longer than I had planned for."
"I'm sorry, I meant to gather our supplies but.. but mother- mother
was carrying our food. It was.. it was covered-"
*Mother*. Oh Mahal. Thorin settled the once again shivering
hobbit back against his chest, arm tight around his shoulders, "Shhhh, look
at *me*," he waited until the hobbit met his gaze, "I am sorry mim
azaghâl. I.. did not realize they were your parents." He'd
suspected, at the bottom of his mind, he had to admit that, but he'd hoped
he was wrong. "I would not wish anyone else to suffer that."
Least of all a hobbit child, used to nothing but peace.
The eyes filled with tears, "I am no warrior."
Thorin finished settling them back where they had been, though holding the
lad tighter as he spoke, keeping his tone as quiet and comforting as he
could while still being heard over the wind's wavering howl, trying not to
remember his own loses, "You are brave. I can teach you the sword, but
I cannot teach bravery. And that is what makes a warrior." The
way the lad was keeping his pain from ruling him with just a bit of
conversation to help was further proof of that bravery, to Thorin.
"I was scared."
"As you should be. And yet you deliberately distracted that beast to
protect me, and then found a way to actually harm it."
"I couldn't let you die."
Thorin quirked a smile, leaning their foreheads together, pleased when the
hobbit's eyes closed and his expression seemed to ease at the contact,
though the tears still leaked. "Of course not, Master Baggins, but
many would have been too frozen to react, let along think of a plan."
"Bilbo."
Thorin nodded, silently pleased at the permission, "..Thorin."
The wind shifted for an instant, sending cold streaming into their
previously comfortable shelter and making Thorin shiver. When Bilbo
wriggled, Thorin relaxed his hold and Bilbo took the blanket that had been
left on his legs and threw it clumsily over the dwarf's shoulders to add to
his existing blanket and cloak. Content that the furs had kept the
hobbit from shivering, Thorin didn't argue, muttering instead, "You should
sleep."
"..I..I don't want to."
Thorin, hearing the tiredness but understanding perfectly the reluctance to
allow sleep to take him, did not even think of holding back his words, this
time. Being treated as neither a prince nor 'dwarf-scum' was simply
too unknown a feeling. Respect and empathy without an inch of
deference or demand. It left him on uncertain footing, feeling almost
beholden, but without his usual hatred of the feeling; he actually *wished*
to help. Feeling uncomfortably exposed, he kept his sight on the
treacherous white beyond their shelter as he spoke, "I can understand not
wanting to sleep. I often dream of dragonfire. Of destruction;
and death."
"I'm sorry. I wish your family was alive."
Thorin's breath caught as soft fingers stroked his beard, choked even more
at realizing that no one had ever actually said those words to him. "Thank
you. But you learn to live with sorrow, mim azaghâl."
Rather than risk the lad getting lost in his pain again, Thorin asked him of
life in the Shire. Hoping it would not lead to dark thoughts of his
parents.
At first hesitant, Bilbo slowly allowed himself to slide into homely
memories. Talk of ordered gardens and lush fields left Thorin more
confused than anything else, the words not bringing specific pictures to
mind. But the pleasure in the hobbit's voice was clear to hear and
easy to be content with. There was less pleasure in the brief descent
into the Shire legalities of renting property and fields, but there was a
firm core of conviction; the knowledge that it was his life and a necessary
part of his people's lives. And *that*, Thorin understood completely.
And though it was like no council he had ever heard of, still the stories of
accompanying his father to mediate disputes between neighbours in their
'farthing' made him grimace in sympathy. And a vague discomfort,
knowing he would soon be facing such on a daily basis... and suspecting he
would not be a fraction as useful as even this youth was. At least his
insights into some of the foibles he described was clear and concise.
Unlike the abrupt and swear-filled description that was all Thorin could
come up with of any of the council meetings he recalled.
About the time the lad muttered about one of his few cousins having tried to
usurp his place at his father's side for being too young, Thorin felt odd
jerks to his scalp and looked down to see gentle fingers twisting and then
combing through a section of his hair that had come to rest next to the
hobbit's relaxed face. He almost warned Bilbo to stay away from the
braids, but could not quite find the words. He had never truly
believed in any holiness in braided hair. The Valar could not truly
waste their time with caring if someone other than blood kin or one's mate
touched a dwarf's braid? And for there to be some roundabout
dispensation when one was too injured to make one's own braids? Or
when it was accidental?
Beyond the suspiciously reason-less rule, there was the real fact that the
hobbit's eyes followed the strokes with a dreamy calm settling over the
previous tension. If such a small thing helped hold horror at bay,
Thorin had to believe the Valar would agree there was no harm.
Unsurprisingly, the next topic was how different hobbit hair was, not to
mention the lack of beards. And then grand parties were described, and
the importance of pipeweed and beer, which Thorin found himself humming
agreement with.
However, the loving description of long walks in woods as a child, dreaming
of *elves*, of all things, had Thorin grumbling automatically, never able to
let mention of his nemeses pass without comment.
Only this time his audience did not take the annoyance without
comment. Instead, he found himself having to explain that the elves
had left them to starve when the dragon had chased them from their
home. He'd never actually *explained* such a thing. Usually
shouted the accusations with fury, instead. It was oddly far more
satisfying when Bilbo finally agreed that Thranduil's actions in refusing to
aid hurt and starving dwarrows made him a bastard. More satisfying
than any returned excited shout joining his hatred.
He supposed it was less than surprising, and his own fault, really, when a
few minutes of silence was followed with a quieter question.
"How did you bear losing people you love?"
He looked down, frowning a little at the more private question. But he
could see the grief once again pulling the corners of soft lips down
tight. He leaned his head to rub a cheek on the very un-dwarf-like,
but apparently typically hobbitish, curls on Bilbo's head, thinking back.
Finally only coming up with one conclusion. "..By not thinking of it,
mostly."
He felt his headrest try to shift, no doubt to give him a confused glare,
which he knew such an answer deserved, "..*How* did you not think of it?"
The words for that also took him a bit of searching, keeping his eyes out on
the world, though he still leaned. The memories were easier to sift
through than they usually were, when some need had sent him into that fiery
dark before. It certainly didn't occur to him to complain when those
soft fingers did end up on a braid. The symbol of the very clan whose
shattering he was picturing, stroked and wrapped around soft fingers.
"My people were... homeless. Injured, grieving, hungry. There
were many other things I needed to think of."
It took a moment to shift from pride at himself for managing to explain
himself so clearly, to feeling the tension growing again in the body leaning
on his. Then he had to lift his head as Bilbo turned a worried frown
up at him, "But you're not starving now, are you?"
And one of those soft hobbit hands touched the bare skin of his cheek,
fingertips stroking under his cheekbone, where he knew there *had* once been
deep hollows.
And Thorin froze at the soft touch, taking a moment to realize what that
strange concern in the frown looking up at him meant. To realize that
if he and his people *were* still hungry, this young one, who had likely
never before spoken more than the odd word of commerce with a dwarf, had no
obligation or reason to help, and was facing famine himself, would be trying
to help them.
And he could not speak. Felt a weight press on his chest; for a moment
buried under the memories of all the faces that had turned away and refused
to help him and his for over a hundred years.
"Thorin?"
He hadn't realized he'd closed his eyes until he heard that soft worried
voice and saw darkness. Opening them, he found he'd leaned into the
hand that now cradled his face. And though he jerked upright in
embarrassment to have forgotten himself so in front of anyone... He could
not deny that he felt lighter, could look at the people who had spurned him
and... the anger he felt was tempered by the sudden certainty that there was
one who would offer him sanctuary and comfort.
He still made sure his expression was properly closed before he answered,
though inside an echo of wonder rang through him again for the hobbit.
And his voice was shockingly soft and rough, even to his ears, "No. We are
no longer starving. We have finally made a fair life in the Blue
Mountains."
That Bilbo smiled so widely, his eyes brightening away from grief for a
moment, was further proof of that unconditional sanctuary. "I'm glad."
There were minutes of silence as Thorin watched the snow piling up beyond
their shelter. Tomorrow's travel was going to be difficult, even for
him, let along the smaller hobbit. The warm weight resting against him
was shifting gently and he knew from a glance when it had started that the
hobbit was nodding his bare cheek against the trim of his makeshift
blanket. Even ragged and grime-filled as it was, Thorin knew just how
comfortingly soft his coat's fur was; he was glad if it was enough to give
Bilbo pleasant distraction from his memories as well.
Still, Thorin decided they both could use something stronger, to withstand
the chill if nothing else, and reached into his pack for a flask, taking a
small swallow and handing it to his companion as he took a deep breath to
savour the burn. If he'd expected the young hobbit to choke on harsh
dwarven brandy, he would have been disappointed at the mere blinks of
surprise he got instead before the flask was handed back.
"That was *not* a smooth drink."
The prim words, only barely roughened by the burning of the very *rough*
drink, caught Thorin right to the heart and he was laughing out loud before
he'd realized it was coming. It only lasted a moment, but it was a
shock. He could not remembered the last time he'd laughed from actual
pleasure, and his face still felt shifted out of position, even now that he
was certain he was back to his normal expression.
Bilbo's grin as he stared at him was fair payment for the minor discomfort,
however. Especially when he followed it with more of his happy chatter
of home. This time about his extended family, though it did not sound
as though any were of an age with him. It led to mention of the Thain,
who was apparently his grandfather. Which, if Thorin remembered the
information Dís had long ago given him about their far neighbours in the
Shire, made Bilbo the equivalent of a lord, though she had said the hobbits
did not care about the trappings of power.
Sadly, from the Thain, the hungry winter that had already caused rationing
rules throughout the Shire was an unavoidable topic. "And it won't be
enough." Thorin frowned deeply at the serious tone, remembering that
Bilbo had sounded wise when speaking of the disputes; if things were this
bad... the Blue Mountains would likely be affected as well. "Unless the
other farthings have much more food than we found.. There's going to be a
lot people...." he shook his head, unwilling to say it aloud. But
Thorin had watched the young, the old and the injured die of
starvation. He knew what Bilbo saw coming. And found his arms
tightening around the body resting trustingly against him.
There was nothing he could do to help them. Every scrap of gold he had
or made, now or in the future, belonged by rights to his people. And
they would never willingly share it with the Hobbits. Though he
*would* make damned certain to find a Dúnedain before continuing home.
And wargs *were* a danger to the dwarrows; he was entirely within his rights
to order heavy long-range hunting parties for those. And if they
happened to cut across the Northern orcs' access to the Shire, well that was
also part of the path the creatures would take to the Blue Mountains.
But none of that would insure the survival of one hobbit.
"Father-" Thorin tightened his arms even further at the break in the
hobbit's voice, "Father said hobbits would survive. That we are
tougher than even *we* think. We've had to be to survive with so many
bigger folk in the world. But Mother... mother said no one can stand
alone in the end. That the Rangers would come through and help
us. Or that the Thain would find other help, further afield."
The hobbit huffed, then, and Thorin looked down when he felt the head lift
from his chest, meeting a sadly amused shadow of a grin, "What do you think
would happen if the Thain sent to the Blue Mountains for help?"
Thorin snorted before he could help himself, regretting the truth of the
response, but refusing to lie to the lad, refusing to endanger him with
false hope; the hobbits should not waste time and resources trying to reach
the Blue Mountains. "Nothing helpful, I'm afraid. Strangers are
neither welcome in our halls, nor do we dwarrows, let alone those of us that
survived the famine after Erebor, offer to help strangers." Though if
Thorin received such a call... But he could already imagine the council
scene. There was no power in his grandfather's title these days.
"Well. Perhaps the elves from the Grey Havens would help."
"...I would not put any faith in such a thought, I hope you will warn your
grandfather." As much as he hated the elves and expected they would
provide as little help as his people... it was a measure of his fear for the
hobbits' survival that he did not say more to discourage their contacting
the arrogant point-ears.
After too long passed in silence, Thorin looked down, knowing Bilbo did not
sleep from the continued shifting of his hair. Unsurprised to find
tear-trails on his cheeks, he leaned his head down again.
Keeping his eyes on the forest, he deliberately made his tone deep and even,
hoping to lull him to sleep. And started speaking of home. Of
Dís and Frerin and Balin and Dwalin and the trouble they all got into as
dwarflings. Of the beauty of the mountain and its wonders of jewels
and gold and silver. Of his mother's harp, his father's flying
daggers. Of the name of his clan, touching Bilbo's fingers where they
smoothed the braid and bead marking him of Durin.
Eventually his vice turned hoarse and Bilbo quietly chimed in with more
about parties, and games played, and as they exchanged odd details of their
very different lives, Thorin was able to acknowledge that there *were* times
of light and laughter to be remembered. The past was not all
blood-drenched loss and pain; and so likely the future not entirely made of
wearing frustration. He was doing himself, and Erebor, a disservice,
to allow himself to forget the reasons they must continue to fight.
The storm's heavy clouds had made darkness fall earlier, the day before, but
once it passed, so late as to be early, the white carpet it left behind made
the first lightening of pre-dawn spread like morning, though it brought no
warmth. The weight against his chest had gotten heavier as Bilbo gave
in to sleep, and Thorin settled in to a quiet watch until they could get
under way. But when the sun came through with a biting cold, Thorin
allowed himself to drowse lightly, knowing that wargs had no love of
daylight. He would need his strength if he were to move them both
through the deep snows rippled before their refuge to reach the hobbit's
home, and Bilbo would need to be rested to keep his sense of direction
through the cold.
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He was awakened by a sharp wriggling, and an unfortunately placed elbow in
his side.
"Umph," he grunted, eyes springing open instantly and fingers already
twitching for his weapons.
The hobbit, for his part, gazed back at him sheepishly. "I need to-"
limp curls jerked toward the opening to the snowy-laden forest,
"...outside?"
Rubbing a hand over his face, Thorin took note of the brightness and the
changed direction of the light invading their shelter. "We should make
ready to depart, in any case. We are nearing the warmest hours of the
day, little though it feels like it."
The hobbit nodded, and fumbled loose from Thorin's furs, his haste in
scrambling into the cold, away from their warmth, betraying just how long he
had been denying his bladder, making Thorin quirk a rueful smile at himself
for not having been woken by his tension.
Once nature had been answered, they shared more of his travel fare and went
through the unpleasant exercise of cleaning each other's infected wounds and
refreshing the bandages before making ready to travel and taking stock of
their surroundings.
"I've never seen so much snow."
Thorin hoped that meant there would soon be less as they neared the lad's
home. "I have seen it. But I have never had to travel in
it." And glad he was to have avoided winter in the Northern areas
during his wanderings, now. "Hunters in the North say that when it is
truly cold, they bury themselves in the snow and it is warmer."
Bilbo turned a very dubious look on him, apparently searching for teasing,
"Really?"
"Um. But I do not think even I am dressed warmly enough to wish to
attempt it. We need to be moving."
Left to himself, Thorin would have been glad for the sun's direction and
tried to remember the bones of maps of the area; he was more than glad that
he could instead trust Bilbo's assurances that he knew the way from here,
and simply focus on breaking a path where his small guide indicated.
Of course, as suspected, Bilbo's estimate of 'less than an hour' was rather
short of the mark, hours of gruelling effort passing as Thorin forced his
legs through snow up to his thighs and all too often packed down by that
wind that had fought with his leather sheet through the night. Though
he worried the lad would be cold, walking behind him in only his furs, still
an uneven cover even after he'd thought to use string to bind it closed over
his chest. Especially with the injury weakening him. But the
hobbit seemed strong enough as he followed stoically, and offering to carry
him seemed more likely to offer insult. Aside from slowing them even
more, and he had no wish to be caught in the open by nightfall.
At least the strain of their trek went a long way toward warding off the
cold of the too-still air, and the depth of the snow did soon lessen as the
land sloped slightly down. Unfortunately the lower area seemed to have
gotten more of the ice pellets, so they did not significantly get to speed
their pace.
What had to be at least three hours, and the landscape had changed a great
deal from that twisted forest and its dead surroundings. They were now
surrounded by flatter areas of snow bordered by humped ridges suggesting the
farmland and fences that must lay below, based on Bilbo's stories, sleeping
fallow until spring, though there were no signs of houses such as Thorin was
used to seeing in the lands of Men.
When he commented on the lack of dwelling places, wondering where the
farmers and their families were, let along their animals, the hobbit giggled
behind him, and pointed out small mounds, often sheltered by large trees
sticking out of the assumed fields, "Hobbits live in smials. Holes dug
into the ground." When Thorin squinted, he could just make out shadows
that resolved as round doors, which he realized must lead to the underground
burrows, the thought of which he thoroughly approved. Now that he
could recognize the homes, he could also make out short posts stuck in the
ground, with boxes topping them, near each doorway, though he had no idea of
their function, other than acting as a flag to aid his unfamiliar eyes to
mark each dwelling.
Eventually, having cut through a small stand of trees, they struck what
Bilbo said was a main road, today nothing but a wider area of shallower,
more wind-swept snow between fence ridges than the narrow meandering lanes
they'd avoided, where iced hillocks and beaten white furrows fought for rule
of the buried path. They'd stopped to brush some of the excess snow
off themselves, now that they were less likely to have to wade so deeply
through the stuff, and for Bilbo to reckon exactly where he was, when Thorin
heard the sound of hooves dragging through the shallow snow and managing to
clap on stone below it, and Deathless was in his hands without a thought.
Bilbo, for his part, had his staff firmly clutched between his hands almost
as quickly, jumpy and obviously responding to Thorin and his own fear after
everything that had happened, and scowled fiercely at the dwarf when Thorin
swept him behind himself. He dimly realized the traveller was most
likely one of the peaceful inhabitants, Bilbo's friends and neighbours, but
he'd survived by being wary for far too long to be a fool now.
It only took a few moments for the waggon to come around the trees into
plain view, weathered wood creaking with the cold, pulled by a sturdy
chestnut-brown pony, with a brilliant white lick at its forehead,
well-groomed and cared for. Thorin was unsurprised to see another
hobbit sitting atop the waggon, as well-rounded as the stories had left
Thorin to expect, wearing a serviceable cloak, pale even under the dusting
of snow, hooded and thick; much more practical than Bilbo's neat coat.
At the sight of Thorin, sword drawn, standing on the road, the cart pulled
to an abrupt stop some yards away, and Thorin let Deathless's point drop at
the wide eyes in a smooth face, older than Bilbo, though just as untouched
by hard years; and rounded enough to make famine seem a distant thing
indeed.
From behind him, Bilbo impatiently pushed Thorin's restraining hand away and
shoved his way to the fore. "Master Gamgee!" he called, and something
disquieting went through Thorin to realize that they had made it to safety,
and that his young companion would soon no longer need his assistance.
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Master Gamgee's small waggon got them to the hobbit's home in less than half
an hour, Thorin holding his companion close again to warm them both as they
sat unmoving, suddenly, the sweat of their previous exertions chilling on
they skin. Bilbo haltingly telling the older hobbit how they'd come to
be wandering in the wake of the storm. Thorin kept him all the closer
as he shivered and paled, remembering details of the attack that Thorin
suspected Master Gamgee would have preferred not to hear as their driver
sent them worried looks and began to dart glances at the silent
country-side.
Opening one of those odd round door just as Thorin lifted the case of
staples that had shared their ride, the good master's wife took one look at
young Bilbo and bundled him into what became a warm warren, past the too-low
door and scrupulously-clean doormat that the dam glared him firmly to after
Gamgee gingerly poked him ahead of himself.
As Thorin tried to brush his boots into a semblance of cleanliness, she sent
her husband back out to get a doctor before pointing Thorin to a door off to
the left, "Take that box into the kitchen once those.. boots.. are
clean. Then take off your coat and go through into the living
room." Muttering and fussing, she firmly tugged Bilbo down the rounded
corridor opening a few steps in front of the entrance.
Box left next to the doorway to the brightly-lit kitchen, where pots and
utensils hung from the ceiling neatly as ranked soldiers and the smell of
cooking apples coming from a stone oven, Thorin slowly made his way to the
opening leading into another room, more rounded walls that made him hunch
even when his head was not in danger, these covered in a pale blue like the
sky they'd just come in from under rather than the naturally light wood of
the entrance room.
What the lady had called the living room had several large armchairs and
other well-padded sitting areas; toys, books, incomplete carvings and
knittings scattered in far more chaos than the kitchen had been allowed to
entertain. Though the wooden furniture was just as pale and
well-waxed, the same faint scent of lavender sharing air with the beech
burning in the fireplace that dominated a wall, built reassuringly square as
its chimney reached up through the ceiling.
He'd only been standing a few moments, content to warm himself in a place
safe from wargs and orcs -for now- when Bilbo was ushered in with more
fussing, now wearing a clean, thick work shirt, loose and stained, which was
just as well since Thorin could see his bandage under it, no doubt adding
another layer of stain to the material. The fresh pair of too-short
trousers were equally rough and warm-looking, and Bilbo was firmly settled
in front of the fire in one of the soft chairs, a padded quilt tucked around
him as Thorin watched approvingly, and soon they were both handed heavy cups
of warm tea by their host, Thorin bemusedly ordered, with another sharp
glare that seemed to be a common knack of hobbits, to sit himself down and
stop looming, before Mistress Gamgee muttered her way back to the kitchen
once again.
Enjoying the warmth of the cup he carefully cradled more than the bitter
smell of the tea's steam, Thorin sat hesitantly in the most solid-seeming
chair he found and then met Bilbo's amused eyes.
"You are welcome to stay for as long as you like." The young hobbit's
amusement dimmed into a mix of grief and simple tiredness, "Bag End, my..
home, is more than large enough for guests."
Thorin could almost see the events of the previous day pilling in on him
again. The Gamgees' care gave truth to the lad's stories of being a
respected member of society, which also meant he was going to have
responsibilities to deal with, along with his grief. He nodded,
burying a moment's unfamiliar wistfullness, "You will be busy enough not to
need further complications. And I need to make my way to the Blue
Mountains before this early winter makes travel even more impassable."
Bilbo smiled sad understanding, "We will get you a few fresh supplies, at
least. And let the doctor see your arm. Sleep the night, here
-the Gamgees would be pleased to repay your help to me-, or at the Green
Dragon, if you prefer. Then in the morning you can start with the
sun."
It was late enough already that he did not particularly feel like turning
his back on a night behind warm, safe, walls, especially knowing the week,
at least, of travel ahead of him. He settled for a nod of agreement as
their host appeared with a board of sweets and more of the tea.
Once they'd had their fill and she left again, frowning in the direction of
another rounded hallway from which Thorin had heard the sound of children, a
few times, Thorin stretched, and reluctantly got ready to leave, in no mood
for a doctor and knowing Bilbo would not argue overmuch. He stepped
closer to crouch by the young hobbit, "If you ever have need, bâhith, know
that you can call on me," he raised a hand when Bilbo's lips parted,
lowering his voice to be sure Mistress Gamgee would not hear, "It means
friend that is young. Give my name to a dwarf and tell them I named
you such, and you should find your way to me."
When the hobbit-dam returned, he accepted a hard bread that would survive
travel well enough, but refused more, aware even if she wasn't that she
would need every crumb to keep her family alive in the coming months.
With a last nod of thanks to both of them as they waved him on his way,
Thorin repeated Bilbo's fairly simple route to the inn, trying not to be
distracted by the odd peace of the quiet Shire and the disquieting concern
that Bilbo and his people might soon lose this.
Warm light from little windows, round like those odd doors, now breaking the
falling dusk to make the 'smials' more obviously dwellings. Smoke
rising from most of the buried hillocks under which lived hobbit
families. Every so often he would hear voices, laughter and cries,
through the thick earthen walls. They seemed a merry lot, and Bilbo
and the Gamgees' friendliness spoke well for them. He wondered if his
kin would ever find such peace again in his lifetime.
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