Sanctuary
Author: wanderingsmith
Started date apr 2018
Summary: "I do like the new furniture, Q.
Aside from the bit of bullet protection of good old
hardwood, this is far more of a statement of
authority than your old flimsy egalitarian placards
of economy."
5+1
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: I ain't got no money, and nobody'd
be daft enough to pay me for this. As it is thought,
so let it be said; you make the toys, I play with
'em..
AN: beta by Fontainebleau
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Chapter
one
apr
14, 2018
Bond stalked through the doors into Q-branch, glaring
behind himself, and after taking a sharp scope of the
room, made his way to Q's station without a word to
drop down in between the unfamiliar desks that still
smelled of fresh-cut wood and lacquer, inches from the
Quartermaster's leg, jaw locked and glowering up at Q
who had turned to watch him with amused curiosity. He
reluctantly grumbled, "Psych are hunting me."
Q grimaced, "My sympathies. Hate that place."
Bond blinked at the calm boffin, allowing himself to
be momentarily distracted, "And just how often do
*you* have to go there, Quartermaster?"
Q's face smoothed into a blank-eyed look, voice going
quiet, "Aside from the delightful anniversary of my
hire, every time one of you lot gets tortured or
killed on the comm." Bond stilled at that thought,
eyes narrowing thoughtfully as Q sent a reminiscing
glare toward the doors, "I don't even have time to
make sure you're properly out and safe before one of
them appears at the door with that blasted fake smile
they all have and ‘Oh Quartermaster, let's have a
‘chat' '." Q sneered as he turned back to his
computer, the first flurry of keystrokes a little too
vicious before he caught himself.
Bond silently touched a hand to the back of Q's calf,
meeting the surprised look the man threw down with a
regretful shrug, "My apologies, Q." He didn't like the
brief image of his quartermaster rushing to get him,
or one of his fellow agents, evac'ed, haunted by the
same worry for their lives that Bond felt whenever
someone he was working with got themselves injured,
but keeping it buried under a mile of solid British
stoicism, and then being dragged away to be asked 'how
he *felt*'.
Q snorted a quick laugh, his pissed-off look morphing
to pleased amusement, "I don't expect you get
yourselves tortured deliberately to land me and my
techs in their clutches." Then he paused and one brow
went up, "Though if you happened to think of us before
you go and risk your life needlessly, it would be
appreciated."
Relaxing, James grinned, amused at the cheek, "I'll
see what I can do, Q. But I'm afraid I can't make any
promises."
Q shrugged as he turned back to his work, "Didn't
really think I'd be that lucky."
Leaning back at ease against the heavy wood at his
back, James stared at the dark whorls in the sliding
panel of the desk opposite him, "I do like the new
furniture, Q. Aside from the bit of bullet protection
of good old hardwood, this is far more of a statement
of authority than your old flimsy egalitarian placards
of economy."
He leaned his head to look up with a smirk at the dry
look he could feel burning into the top of his head.
"I was told it matched the style of my cardigans.
Luckily I took that as a compliment." As James huffed
a laugh of commentary at the godawful clothing, the
younger man shrugged, "I still think solid oak writing
desks are ridiculously ostentatious in the middle of
an open workspace like this," he sent a dry look at
the old tunnel's bricking, "Even if it does somewhat
fit the ‘paneling'." He looked down at James with a
slightly grim smirk, "And yes, I've pointed out to
everyone that this would be a good place to avoid low
caliber shots, should such an emergency situation
arise." One of his computers bing'ed and Q looked
away, attention visibly going back to his work, voice
fading with distraction, "That said.. Oh what's this
now… I've already warned everyone who makes
complimentary noises that they are paid for by
Q-branch funds and I will therefore not put up with
complaints when they get damaged by normal.. daily..
use…"
James let his eyes close as Q's mutters went distant
and aimed strictly at the machine.
A scant few minutes later, Bond's eyes snapped back
open when he heard the doors whisk apart. He looked up
at Q and watched him turn to glare at the source of
the noise.
"Has anyone seen Agent Bond?"
He recognized the voice of a harried Psych intern and
sat unmoving, watching Q stare coldly at the intruder,
"He was by earlier." He watched the Quartermaster
maintain a glare that Bond was rather surprised he'd
never earned for himself until the unwelcome guest
mumbled a thank you he could barely hear in his little
sanctuary and left with the smooth sound of
hydraulics.
Bond caught Q's eye as he turned back to his
computer, "Thank you."
Q shrugged, "I'll prevaricate as long as I can. Lie
when I have to. The others will take their lead from
me. I don't promise they'll be able to keep up the lie
forever, though."
Bond nodded. He could have made a run for it:
escaping Vauxhall while avoiding a group of
head-doctors that weren't even trying to stick him
with needles (yet) was hardly a challenge compared to
what he did for a living. Instead he found himself
letting his head fall back against Q's desk,
unconscionably content to sit on the unpleasant
gridwork floor with Q's calm breathing and smooth
typing besides him. Though the solid desks shielded
him front and back and Q's body on one side, he was
still exposed in his strange little hiding place, and
had stood in this room often enough to know that
usually, Q's people would be walking by regularly. The
fact that he didn't see anyone said a great deal about
the seemingly constantly-distracted techs' perfect
awareness of the real world.
What it said about *him* that he apparently didn't
care about being known to hide behind the
boy-quartermaster would sting more if Q weren't taking
it in his stride without comment, spoken or silent. As
the minutes passed, Bond felt his face slowly relax in
a way no counseling session had ever managed, letting
his mind lull itself to sleep tracking Q's small
movements on the desk: the shift of a foot, (was the
lad's back stiff from standing on this metal floor?),
the slide of the mouse, the occasionally slightly
harder typing (was the damned infernal machine being
stubborn even for Q?), the thunk of that ubiquitous
mug of Earl Grey (sounded empty, hopefully someone
else heard that and did something about it..).
"Bond."
James opened his eyes to see Q crouching inches away.
The internal clock that had served him well through
any number of sense-deprived incarcerations told him
he'd been out for at least a couple hours.
"I have to go to the workshop."
James nodded, rising and plotting how to, this time,
get out of this building altogether. Two hours of
solid sleep had him feeling far more human and
entirely up for the challenge of exfiltrating their
headquarters. He smirked in anticipation, muscles
already setting into calm mission mode, "Thanks for
the secure nap, Q. Much appreciated."
The little amused grin that curled the man's lips was
always a pleasure to catch, and likely meant he knew
just what James was planning. James wondered if he was
going to take the time to lookup the camera footage to
watch him escape, later.
"I'm your Quartermaster, 007. It's my job to see to
what you need."
AN:
next several chapters already written, just needing
a bit more smoothing.
Chapter
two
apr
2018
A few weeks later, when 007 showed up to deliver his
equipment remnants after a mission that had had far too
many civilian casualties, no matter how hard the man had
tried to be everywhere at once, visibly twitching when a
tech walked past him on his way to Q's desk and wearing
a mask that Q could see already starting to crack, he
caught the man's eyes and tipped his head toward the
space next to him without a thought.
For a moment he saw the crazed killer, snarling, unable
to allow anyone near, fighting with a desperately
exhausted and wounded man. Q stood still and stared back
into ice-blue eyes as calmly as he could while catching
up to what had been a reflex offer. Bond had been doing
this for 20 years on his own; he obviously had a myriad
of survival mechanisms in place for these bad days. It
was a wild guess on Q's part that his peaceful little
rest the other day, hiding in the heart of Q's command
center, meant he felt some safety here; let along that
that safety would help him today.
But he was only a little surprised when the dirty,
bloody, exhausted, bespoke-rag-wearing agent darted next
to him as though avoiding a hail of bullets, and dropped
down. Q didn't say a word and breathed steadily. He set
to methodically going over the damaged gun the man had
left him and brought up the forms on the tablet he kept
on the ‘public' side of his workdesk to deal with the
lost transmitter and digital lockpicks, all the while
conscious of 007 twitching where he sat, trying to get
comfortable while flinching at too many nearby noises.
Inventory done, he turned back to his terminal and went
back to work analysing the data in the harddrive 008 had
brought in last night.
It was odd how aware, yet unbothered he was by the man,
the very deadly, currently unstable man, a bare six
inches from his leg. It wasn't quite ‘distracting', only
another source of input into his mind, though one that
pulled more attention than it really should. He was as
aware when 007 stopped startling as he was of the ping
of a search on screen two, tracking his slowing
breathing at the same time as he kept an ear on Kelly's
work guiding 002 through an easy hack.
Perhaps it was less distracting than a small window with
face-recognition running on London's CCTV.
His people were obviously just as aware, because when
Ted brought him a fresh cup of tea a couple hours later,
he detoured to avoid the side where a dangerous agent
was sleeping.
Q murmured "Thank you, Ted," then hesitated a moment
before adding, "Would you mind bring me an orange
juice?" He was grateful the man didn't comment on the
change in habit. He knew first-hand that above-average
IQ didn't mean the ability to put human two and two
together; and he didn't care to explain any of this to
anyone else.
When the man brought him the requested plastic bottle, Q
carefully crouched down and spoke calmly, refraining
from touching the man at his side, "007. Drink this
please." He watched Bond's eyes open, surprisingly
slowly, bleary from half-awake exhaustion, but with a
desperate sharpness still present behind, and waited to
see if the drink would be turned away with suspicion or-
Q's face relaxed as the man reached a stiff hand to take
the bottle and brought it to his lips, physical pain
rather than suspicion slowing the movement, which made Q
wish he'd asked Ted to bring some Nurofen as well.
Bond didn't quite let the grimace show on his face with
every swallow, but Q could see discomfort. He didn't
think asking if it was the taste, the acid, or the cold
would get him an answer, though. The agent took several
gos to finish it, but he did, and silently handed the
empty container to Q who nodded his thanks at the rare
obedience and stood back up, hoping he would go back to
sleep. The drink had helped a little, he was sure. That
usually so soft lower lip was dry enough to crack and
his eyes looked downright painfully stretched. And he
didn't want to think when the last time was that he'd
had a decent meal. But he didn't dare push too much at
the man's over-sensitive boundaries. Not today.
AN:Nurofen:
British brand with ibuprofen
Chapter
three
apr
2018
A few uneventful, except for Q's poor, doomed tech,
missions later, there was a day where Bond, in an
un-torn suit, hair clean and neat and without visible
injuries or not, practically *stumbled* as he walked to
Q. There hadn't been so much cruelty, this time, but
there hadn't been any sleep, either. A week unable to
rest under the direct observation, 24/7, of a group
known for their hair-trigger suspicion and harsh
treatment of traitors, followed by 36 hours of being
chased and dirty, sharp fight after fight. Q suspected
the short trip home in the evac helicopter had been
perfect for nothing but diffusing all the adrenaline
that had kept the man going all this time and leaving
him still field-tense but without any strength.
To Q's relief, he went straight for what Q now couldn't
help but think of as ‘his' spot. Q crouched at his side
to try to make sure there wasn't something he could do
to help, beyond offering a haven that he would keep
safe, "007?"
Bond's eyes were already closed, shadows like day-old
bruises oozing down to make miraculously undamaged
cheekbones seem too sharp, but he managed to mutter back
hoarsely, "Sorry, lost everything."
Q sighed, unable to be annoyed at the man in this state,
and unsurprised, anyway. He thought of asking if he
needed anything, but instead turned to the shelf besides
him and then muttered back, "Budge over." When
red-streaked blue eyes reluctantly opened to stare at
him, he raised the pillow he'd snagged off his office
couch and stashed there after day two of the agent's
unpleasant escapade, feeling a helpless fool, "Not
enough padding on your no doubt sore muscles to be
sitting on gridwork for hours." He tensed after hearing
his own words, wondering if the verbal acknowledgement
would spark pride and make the man run.
The grateful smirk was faint, but Q knew every wrinkle
of that face too well to miss it. When a hand reached
out to him tiredly, he caught it, trying to hide his
relieved breath, and pulled the man up to a crouch
before handing him the pillow.
---
A few nights later, stocking up on basics at the only
supermarket he'd found still open when he'd finally made
it out of the office, Q happened to notice the protein
drink section and stopped when he saw a coffee-flavoured
chocolate one. Coffee, chocolate, protein, and milk to
settle the stomach; everything a growing boy needed,
yes? He added two to his shopping and stashed them in
his office fridge's freezer section, silencing the
little voice that tried to make any more of it than
caring for his agents as a good Quartermaster should.
Chapter
four
apr
2018
AN: sigh. the problem with using AO3's draft
feature, is I keep forgetting to update the
publication date when i go to post!! damn thing
remembers the day I created the draft instead,
grrrrr
James wasn't sure why he allowed himself to keep doing
this. It was one thing to trust *Q*, but his whole
branch knew the agent was essentially *hiding* here on a
regular basis. Like an abused child in his safe
cupboard.
..sometimes he thought of being trapped in that damn
tunnel and seriously wondered why he kept coming back to
this spot. And then he reminded himself not to do
Psych's work for them.
But he still hadn't fought the need when he walked in
after Marakov's goons had spent endless days nicking him
open before he managed to grind a hand loose and fight
his way out. Thankfully he'd lost the earwig while
getting captured, so there was no chance of anyone in
Q-branch having gotten pulled for his troubles.
The not-too-near murmur of gentle voices around; the
white noise of Q's several computers' fans at his back;
Q's presence, and therefore his protection, right
besides him. He'd thought about buying some high powered
PC to mount next to his bed to help him sleep at the
flat, but he knew damn well that he needed the safety
just as much to be able to actually rest the way he did
here. Even if the pillow under his arse wasn't anything
like his mattress with its perfect firmness that he
tossed and turned on through the hours of darkness.
He was aware that Q talked to people regularly while he
dozed and that it didn't wake him. But he must have felt
the flash of tension besides him because he snapped
awake barely a half-hour later to the sound of Q quietly
swearing and the speakerphone being clicked on.
"Q?" Ah. M's hound. No wonder he could feel Q vibrating
with tension besides him.
"What?" He'd have to teach the boffin to hide his
feelings better, that protective growl gave too much
away when so little had been asked.
"Q, we haven't bothered him. I haven't even gone down
there. We just need to know…" Bond's jaw twitched, every
cut in his skin burning for a second, pushing himself
into the desk at his back half-unconsciously, head
tilted toward Q, watching a helpless brand of anger
ripple over his features.
"If he wasn't alright, do you think so little of me that
you think I would stand by and do nothing?"
"..No." Bond sneered at the hesitation in the answer,
knowing Medical and Psych were no doubt slavering to get
their hands on him.
Q glanced down at him, meeting his eyes, voice hard,
"Then leave him be."
James reached a scab-covered hand up to squeeze the
man's knee, smiling gratefully, then closed his eyes
again.
His internal clock told him he'd been sleeping three or
four hours when he felt a hesitant touch on his shoulder
that he knew was Q, the sensation swimming up through
layers and layers of exhaustion and he was too tired to
resist leaning his head toward the welcome contact. He
hadn't managed to open his eyes yet when Q carefully
shifted the hand to his cheek and he could actually drop
the weight of his head onto a palm whose roughness still
surprised him, months after they'd first shaken on the
beginnings of silent, mutual respect.
"Bond? I want you to drink this."
James made himself slit his eyes open and reach for the
drink, keeping his cheek on Q's un-moving hand as long
as he could before straightening with a wince that he
didn't bother to hide to bring the bottle to his lips,
expecting the pulpy bitterness of orange. With the first
swallow, though, he opened his eyes properly and looked
at the label before raising his brows, feeling a
surprising rise of energy even from one slug, "Thought
you didn't like coffee."
Q's lips twitched, a pleased light in his eyes, "I
don't. I quite hate the stuff, I'm afraid."
Just for him, then. It shouldn't touch him this much.
Should at least be no more than something to keep in
mind to use- except just this damn once he didn't want
to run those calculations. Q was loyalty. To *him*. And
he'd found he needed that too much, these days, to do
anything about it.
It wasn't as though he wouldn't do anything in his power
for the man. He'd earned James's loyalty as well.
He sighed with pleasure as he settled back to rest more,
feeling the wave of the drink's energy inside him, but
still tired and world-wary enough to want to stay here.
"Thank you."
Q winked at him, joy smoothing some of the tired stress
from his face, for once, before taking the empty bottle
and James closed his eyes with a little smirk for having
made the man happy. Smirked a little harder to hear the
bottle clang into some distant garbage with a solid aim
that appealed to other, just as powerful, parts of his
soul.
When Q stood a step closer to him as he shifted his
keyboard to do some mouse-intensive work, the warmth of
the man's leg nearby drew James, drowsing his way back
toward asleep, and he tipped over enough to rest his
cheek against Q's ugly but expensively-soft wool
trousers.
Minutes after the fact, it occurred to Q that the sudden
weight of Bond's head on his leg should have made him
jerk. Instead, he was hardly aware of it as he examined
his new watch-control board design for anywhere to fit a
blood sampler. 3D design software was handy, but it
didn't actually *fix* the space constraints that it
displayed so beautifully.
Twitching the image every which way to look for any
opportunity, he wasn't even aware of his unused left
hand dropping toward the weight leaning against him.
Might be some part of him had aimed to reassure the
wounded man, or might be his fingers had simply been
bored and wandered to more of the softness that had
tickled his fingertips when he'd woken Bond earlier.
Either way, when he heard footsteps approaching, he
became aware of their position and spun very carefully
to keep his leg against his agent as the man jerked
awake.
Q nodded at the rough-edged agent stalking toward him
with a too-cruel smirk, "005." Red-haired and a year
younger than Q, the man was slightly shorter, yet wide
enough to seem to loom as he approached Q's desk.
"Q, acquired some new status symbols have we?"
Q bristled to see those cold dark eyes leer toward the
space between the desks where Q's hand had so recently
slipped out of soft strands and he took one sharp step
to stand between that gaze and any view of Bond's prone
form, literally hissing.
Hands forcibly still on the already-scared surface of
the desk, he kept his voice low, though he let every
ounce of fury he felt harden it, "Q branch's furnishings
are none of your concern, agent. Your weapon."
The man only tried to stare him down for a few seconds
before swearing under his breath and practically
throwing a Beretta between them, followed by three
pieces of metal and plastic that used to be an earwig,
and sneering, "It needs calibrating: couldn't hit the
broadside of a barn. And that cheap comm breaks at the
first touch." Q deliberately leaned toward him when he
tried again to look at the narrow space between the
desks before stalking away.
It was all Q could do to clench his teeth on some nasty
insults until he felt Bond's hand touch his calf and
looked down.
Oh how he knew he was a fool for that soft look, hidden
and rare as it was. Unlike the shallow flirting Bond
threw at everyone, that tiny moment of silent affection
was worth the world to him. As for having his protection
accepted by the professionally paranoid, terminally
independent 007...
Chapter
five
apr
17, 2018
"Sorry, Quartermaster." It was odd, after the last
betrayal and death-soaked week in the Brazilian
rainforest, that he really was sorry. For this.
Q grimaced at the half-melted scraps he'd just been
handed, which had once been very useful, and
gratefully-used, high-tech tools, before looking up with
a quietly searching look from tired eyes, "You all
right, then?"
Bond shrugged stiffly, smirk feeling completely false,
"Nothing a bottle of Scotch won't help." If only it
would help more.
Q watched him silently, not commenting on
self-destructive habits the way everyone else did, up to
and including his similarly-inclined cohorts. Not
pointing out that there was an alternative, if he could
only deflate his ego enough to fit.
Q must have decided that Bond wasn't staying, and turned
back to his work with a small nod. Bond stared at the
tempting mess of curls at the back of his head; pictured
his sterile flat and hours spent twitching at shadows
and ghostly whispers, exhaustion not enough to let him
rest for several days to come, regardless of alcohol
self-medication.
He looked around the room, seeing nothing but geeky
heads bent over mysterious work, frowns in place or
chatting with fellow boffins. One fellow, much older
than the average, met his eye as he walked towards the
labs, nodding distractedly as though his thoughts were a
thousand miles away and Bond was no more than a
human-shaped shadow he was expected to respond to. Just
as likely, in *this* group, those thoughts were in a
different universe.
No one watched him as he silently slipped into Q's
station and crouched to grab his pillow before sitting
down wordlessly.
Already the ghosts were quieter. And Q never twitched;
though his shoulders might have relaxed a bit.
The hum of the computers rose and fell as Q demanded
more or less of them. A blanket of peace slowly settled
as Bond's mind remembered that he was safe here. If
anyone dared attack Q-branch, not only were Q and his
people likely to have some nasty surprises in store, but
Q would wake Bond long before he was in danger. Q would
protect him from *any* danger, here.
And he would know the instant *Q* was in danger. That
took away a lot of the ghosts' powers.
"Bond!"
Bond jerked awake at the hands on his jaw, eyes flying
to Q, crouching at his side with an urgent but
un-worried look on him.
"I'm sorry, but M's on his way with some government
tour."
It took several heartbeats for that to make sense and
then James took a deep breath to force himself to
thought, "Right. I should go." Had he really been
sitting for four hours?
Q grimaced, hands still on him, still crouching warm and
safely close, "If it was anyone else I'd deal with them,
but-"
James reached out and touched a finger to the younger
man's cheekbone, smiling, "It's alright, Q."
He pushed himself up, their hands falling away from each
other.
It didn’t happen every time. Bond wasn’t hurt every time
and he often didn’t show up when he *was* injured.
It didn’t happen every time. But it was.. ‘nice’, when
it did. It seemed to help Bond relax, and Q’s
unconscious tracking said he recovered himself quicker;
showed up sooner to ghost the edges of Q-branch,
smirking and springy-stepped. And it soothed Q. Took
away the ragged edge that built up and made it hard to
sleep, when for some reason he actually went home before
he was on the edge of collapse; that made his chest feel
wrapped with brittle cable as he caught himself watching
the doors again and again. That made an imagined broken
and bleeding and too fucking *still* body flash across
his vision when he was trying to focus on the necessary
paperwork that claimed it was a false memory.
Nothing beat the proof of life of calm breaths through
nostrils that had been reconstructed more often than the
average Q-branch deskchair was replaced.
AN:
and we've reached the end of the 'already-written'.
I have ideas for the last part. I just need words.
Chapter
six : +1
date
AN: -to be cotinued..-
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